yssadalawa:

Here’s the mini-comic we had to do for our Graphic Novel class! 

It was very cathartic making this because it was about something extremely personal and sensitive to me and a lot of other people around me. Making this actually helped me come to my own conclusion/closure, and it just really stresses how much art means to me as a means of expression and outlet. 

Therefore, please do not use or steal without my consent!

I hope you enjoy this (:

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issa, im sorry i havent seen you in a while but this piece… this piece made me want to cry and hug you and do so much. i honestly feel like i was mean to see this because i havent been on tumblr in months and this is the first thing i see. thank you for sharing this and i hope there’s something i could do for you. 

Stories always tell you of the main character. How the main character is just a normal person. Then hopefully He turns into and extraordinary person. He suffers goes through trials, sometimes He even dies. But it is always his story.From the beginning till the end. If there are multiple main characters then it is Their story but there is always a main character. The problem with that is that you begin to believe that you yourself are the main character. You begin to see the world as your story. It’s just waiting for you. Waiting for your story to unfold. You forget that everyone is the main character in their own lives. You forget that behind every main character there is a pantheon of helpers. But each of those helpers is a main character. There is no one who is faceless. There is no one who is nameless. Every being is a main character living however they can in their own personal stories. There is no dragon born or master chief or avatar or chosen one or keeper or dungeon master or god slayer or even super plumber. All of us are just living our own stories and the heroes are the heroes of their own lives. 7 billion main characters on this planet. Someone has to play a support role right?

I miss hugs. I love hugging people but it sometimes gets complicated. sometimes you just cant do it for fear of something being said through the hug. and sometimes it doesnt feel right. and sometimes when you want to hug someone you stop because youre not sure they want it. but i do miss the hugs. i miss feeling the warmth of another body, especially a “special” body up against you. i miss the feeling of just hugging someone and it feeling right and not wanting to let go. but then you have to. and the warmth slips away. and in rushes everything else. because when you hug someone right. it’s just you and them. group hugs are not real hugs. they’re cheap impersonal things that just end with someone wanting to tip the group over. it’s the person to person contact. the real feel of someone against your chest and you against theirs, or maybe their head if you’re above them, that makes a hug special. feeling close. feeling special. feeling like you can live there for eternity. thats when a hug is good. when you dont want to let go. and i miss it. not ever wanting to let go. i had a taste of it recently but it fluttered away and now im a junky. im in need of my fix. just one more. one more perfect hit.

man i need to not let months go by without posting 

wow. what a summer this has been. first off i have to say that this has been an amazing summer and i would never change it for anything. i had a lot of anger towards the beginning for stupid reasons but now that has passed and my eyes are more clear than others. 

this feels right. appropriate. it’s currently 3:42 am as i write this sentence, no doubt it’ll probably be close to 4 by the time i actually post it. but thats why it’s right to write. because there’s never any truer time than when someone is tired and every thought they have is just written down immediately. most of my personal posts were done around this time. but i digress for the first time but it will certainly not be the last. 

oh yes. i was supposed to say something about being sorry about being off tumblr. i know people tend not to care but i will say it anyways. im sorry tumblr for ignoring and abandoning you to the ravages of the internet alone. but see now im gonna be a dick and probably forget about you soon enough. that’s something i noticed over this summer. ive become very introspective. ive seen many of my faults that i kinda knew were there before but now… something is different. 

i guess a thank you should go out. primarily to eugene vibar who’s acted as a sort of shepherd to me this summer. he is honestly the cause of this introspective-ness and the sole reason i was able to do such a good job at the ye. wow i’ve needed this. this opportunity to speak. but once again i digress.

btw if any stony people are reading this i want you to know that i love you deeply. you are the reason that i was able to open myself up. you allowed me to see myself new and confident even in a new and foreign place. thank you. 

but back to the summer… hmmmmm. so i guess i should say something about the ye.this summer my life has been ruled by bld. this is most certainly a good thing. it has allowed me to become closer to my adopted class ye 1 but also become a better friend to all of bld. i was a facilitator to the weekend and it was there that i truly learned how important i was, once again thanks to eugene. and now that i skimmed that over again  realized how arrogant that sounded but honestly, due to that weekend and the grace of god i was able to see how much i was needed. thats a much better way to phrase it. and im glad i was able to see where i was needed because now i can help prepare the youth for what they need without me.

but once again i digress. i wanted to talk about how much you guys mean to me. jo and bibo and dom and katie and julie and cheska and ashley and steve. you guys are amazing. im so glad ive been able to see you guys grow from the start. i am truly blessed to have been given that opportunity. and now you guys are gonna be leading the youth and  know i can trust you with that. this ye has shown me just how much rockland can do. i hope you guys know that we can do this by ourselves. we are a force all onto ourselves. we may need a bit of refinement but we are here to stay now. we have go’d blessing and  know we’ll go far.

hmmm other stuffs… so this summer i was unemployed. i know i said to a lot of people that i would be working in dc over the summer. i honestly thought i would be. but when it came time to choose it was either work or the ye. i am not a good person. i was going to choose work. but i was kinda blackmailed/ coerced into choosing ye. and now i see that it was all god’s plan in action. now i know that no matter what happens i can trust in him because he took something that i thought was a curse and turned it nto such a blessing. i have no regrets of this summer. honestly. 

oh yeah. sorry tumblr for not being on. ni got lazy and stopped posting but i should have still wrote. if i did i wouldnt need extra long rants for no reason. sorry bout this. 

my brother is engaged.  played volleyball all summer and im pretty sure i got worse. bld ruled my life this summer and i loved it. no other major points…. 

okay bye. see you next year